Racing Into The Night ( My 2019 Favorite Song )

 

I have no specific genre of favorite songs nor do I have a specific beats of melody. If it is good, surely it will be on the list of my eternal playlist. Jpop, a bit of Kpop, Malay songs, English, Irish, old school songs and also some of Russian songs. Racing into the night, is the kind of song that I would play every morning as I prepare myself before entering the class session. It has very catchy melody, and very deep dark meaning. Better than any K pop songs to be honest. K pop is all about hedonism. That is why I m not really fancy K pop songs or the people that are worshiping K pop industry. J Pop on the other hand, just too perfect.......

The Lyrics:

As it melts like it sinks

    At night when the sky of only two people spreads

   It was only "Goodbye" and I understood everything with that one word

  The sun and the sun

  It was over the fence

  Robbed me of all my heart from the day i first met

  You who wear some fragile air

  I had lonely eyes

  Always with Tic Tac

  How many times in the ringing world

  Innocent words to touch

  Even if tears seem to spill

  Ordinary joy I'm sure we can find you

  To you who can't laugh during the noisy days

  As bright as you can think of tomorrow

  Before it falls on a dawn less night

  Grab my hand and see

  Even the days when I wanted to forget

  Because it’s melted with warmth

  Don't be scared until the sun rises

  Let's be two

  Can only be seen by you

  I hate you staring at something

  Like falling in love

  I hate such a face

  I want to believe but i can't believe

  I wonder what happened

  From now on there are many

  That angry crying

  Still surely someday someday we will surely

  I understand

  I believe

  I’m tired because I don’t like it anymore

  You shake off my hand

  I’m tired because I don’t like it anymore

  I really want to say

  Ah, see again Tic Tac

  How many times in the ringing world

  I can't reach any of the words I prepared for you

  "I want to end it"

  When I was caught and put into words

  You laughed for the first time

  I couldn't laugh during the noisy days

  You look pretty in my eyes

  Even the tears overflowing in the dawn

  Melts into your smile

  I was crying in the same days

  You gently invite me to the end

  As it melts like it sinks

  The stained fog clears

  In the days when I was locked up because I wanted to forget

  Take your hand out

  Now that the cool breeze swims in the sky

  Blow through

  Don't let go of the connected hands

  Two people now

  Run away at night

The song is actually originate from a short story:

Yes, it is dark......

Title: You and me on a summer night.

Temptation of Thanatos

Love

Retrieved from: https://monogatary.com/episode/33827

August 15. Although the sun had just set in, it was still hot and humid.

From my body to go up the stairs of the apartment, sweat was spouting endlessly.

"Goodbye"

Only 4 characters from her LINE.

I immediately knew what that meant.

I was working in the workplace despite the time of Obon, and after returning home, I hurried to my home apartment.

Then, I found her standing with empty eyes on the roof of the apartment, outside the fence.

This is the fourth time I've seen her jumping and committing suicide.

There are two types of people in the world.

The drive for life ── Human beings controlled by “Eros”,

The drive for death: A human being dominated by "Thanatos."

Most of the humans in this world were the former, but she was undeniably the latter.

I knew she was a "Thanatos"-controlled person before I started dating her.

That's supposed to happen, so we met because I helped her, who is trying to commit suicide on the rooftop of an apartment like she is now.

A girl who recently moved to the same apartment. She has fluffy eyes, chubby lips and a pretty face, but she has a fragile look, but she instantly took my heart away. I'm sure it was like love at first sight.

From that point on, I started talking to her, and soon became friends.

For me, living alone and lonely while working for the Black Company, she was like an angel descending from heaven.

I had one question.

She always contacts me when she tries to commit suicide. And I'm waiting there until I come.

I'm sure it's better to die alone without letting anyone know,

Perhaps she was just interpreting it as if she had somewhere in her heart that she wanted me to stop suicide and help me like she did when she met.

That's why I run up the stairs of the apartment again this time.

"Huh, huh..."

Reach the rooftop of the apartment.

I found her back, standing behind the fence.

"wait…!!"

Jump over the fence and take her hand.

Her hands were cold against the hot and humid air.

"let me go"

A fragile and cute voice that resembles the sound of a bell. I also liked her voice.

"Why did you do that...!"

"I want to die quickly"

"why…!"

"Since Shinigami is calling"

She can see the "Grim Reaper". It is said to be a rare symptom of human beings controlled by "Thanatos".

And "Grim Reaper" can only be seen by the human beings controlled by "Thanatos".

"There is no grim reaper."

"Why don't you understand...!"

When I deny the Shinigami, she always cries.

The Shinigami seems to be the most attractive to those who see it. So to speak, it looks like an ideal person.

When she was staring at the Grim Reaper (though to me, it only looked at the void) she looked like a girl in love. It's like being in love with it.

I didn't like that look on her.

"Don't look at the Shinigami, look at me"

"I hate...!"

She tried to shake me off my hand

"painful…!"

"!sorry…"

But you might be wrong. I'm trying to shake off my hand. Because he doesn't look at me.

"Grim Reaper doesn't do this...!"

The black things that come to my heart come to me.

"why…"

I wonder why I love you so much, but you don't just look at me.

Somewhere in my mind I was ridiculous to be jealous of the Shinigami, but I didn't care.

"I don't like it anymore"

I don't like it either.

"I'm already tired"

I'm tired too.

"I want to die quickly"

"I want to die too!"

At that time, she looked up.

I was laughing with a smile.

As soon as I saw her smile, I suddenly felt that the black thing that struck me disappeared.

I wonder if this is the case.

"Finally... Did you notice?"

"Oh... finally I understand."

"Really...what good?"

Oh, I see.

I called you every time you tried to commit suicide not because I wanted to help you.

You wanted to take me.

For me, the "Grim Reaper" was her.

Try listen to it, You ll not be disappointed, that I can assure you.